I feel , when I am not making an effort here in the course, I am putting myself aside for a time. Somewhere along my path, my journey I was able to connect to the course and connect with myself thru the course I chose to do. Now, I gave my self the chance to begin again ,in this course I am grateful. THis feeling is strong. that when i decided to come into this course again I was determined to let my light shine, it’s not even a light. It’s a movement from inside outward. A bursting of rhythm and song. A huge shift of equal momentum in every part of my body.
My growth for my inner self, Harmony ,peace, love, faith, meditation, prayer, focus on my goal and making the big effort of breaking down letting go of the obstacles(old blue print) that are hindering me. Its ok and good to let go and replace it consistently to want my growth – Love my focus. I was reading the 4 agreements and Migel reminded me again how much i have moved away from myself again in another way. I have the will to connect to everything, and being vitalized by all things. what an expression of self love. That my world is an illusion. What? An illusion again. woooow. i forgot to stay in focus with my studies here that life really became an illusion of confusion, normally i would stay into this state of mind for a year and now it is so much sooner. back on track to get past my differences and iluminate my life for massive growth again.
I am working my business and have made movement to be financially ahead. So much energy was put into this and then working in my job, placed me on the side lines. I wanted to do my business and i need my work to provide my income. I became sick from the weather and the bus not heated in -24 weather. I may have gotten sick from my thinking and the stress of the cold weather of driving for 2 hours without heat. I am having trouble separating my old habits As soon as I asked myself the question: Where or how can i put myself on the path to greatness long term. i felt strongly that my life at this time has repeated what i did not want. My old blue print is staying in a job i do not believe is benefitting my life. Being aware of this now my mind is open to hearing an answer. so people chatted in my job about changing their job, an advertisement screamed at me about change life for the better, do it now, i hear on someones radio” Want change do it now” many more came my way. It is my awareness and my conviction to do this change, so I am set to change my life. Iam remembering all the handicap people that come on my bus, all the women that are abused in there job because they feel stuck and i have a choice.
My son came to live with me for a bit. i wanted this because I felt we left on bad terms 6 years ago and i am blessed to have him near me again. Using the tool : clarity as a tool to be used here, huge opportunity to find love again and heal so both of us can move ahead. I am happy and excited to have this moment in my time. I appreciate the decision to take this course and to have the love and connection in my self and with others to continue my life well.
Haanel 21:17 You may know that thought constantly, eternally is taking form, is forever seeking expression, or you may not, but the fact remains that if your thought is powerful, constructive, and positive, this will be plainly evident in the state of your health, your business and your environment; if you thought is weak, critical, destructive and negative generally, it will mainfest itself in your body as fear, worry and nervousness, in your finance as lack and limitation, and in discordant conditions in your environment.
I know what the webinar was about. Here in this chapter this speaks to me good.
I want to speak about the feeling i get when i am raging or angry or keeping a nasty thought for so long. It stays with me in everything , just a smidge of disruption makes the whole of what i am angry about come to life. Is this a great way to live, to be set off guard by my own thought process into a grudge, a grouchy disposition, my mannerism changes.. I would say NO! I want to walk or drive or swim or chat, have moments where i have not carried old bagage into my new mornings that progress to great adventures in my day until finally a quiet loving night comes to rest. I want to seize the day knowing i have let go of the constant flow in my mind, trust that it is worthy thoughts that bring about worth while causes and inspiration art projects. yes My mind is in constant flow forever seeking expression. i only have to ask myself what kind of expression do i want to leave you with.
This week was a miracle in its self. We are all miracles of life and love every single day! My realization of how much of a miracle is realized this very day. I have gratitude, I have the ability to do everything that i desire. Infinite power and all the knowledge reside in every single cell of our body . You have awareness and you are powerful beyond measure. As you think in your heart so are you !
My meditation: thoughts. Haanel:20-18 Inspriration is from within. The Silence is necesary, the senses must be stilled, the muscles relaxed, repose cultivated. When you have thus come into possession of a sense of pose and power you will be ready to receive the information or inspiration or wisdom which may be necessary for the development of your purpose.
So my full thought about this week was: I had couple of set backs, me getting a half a pay check, someone said no to some project, that was very important to me and then i was not well. So by monday 18 feb i meditated and came up with another solution to my one thought before this day and here it is.
I really havent thought much about quantum physics having any affect on my life until i just recently had a conversation with a friend about it again. I Remembered the movie ” What the bleep ….. I dont know if my friend had known about it but it struck me at that moment and I thought it would lead to an interesting conversation.
So i lead into how our own viberation is a cause from our thoughts, happy sad mad. or depressed. wanting something and focusing on it with thought, can manifest it by Thought feeling and then action. The feelings do effect the outcome. So happily Focusing on the one thought and naturally letting it happen, makes it a miracle all in itself.
So this past week was Valentines and the advertisements were all around, in the malls on tv ,hearing it on the radio. THe red hearts, chocolates, extra flowers out balloons and cards very much stimulated the LOVE factor here for me. I should think everyone else who is aware about love and connects it to Valentines was too. THe strength for this idea for me goes like this.
by just having a person connect love to this fun celebration or any other it multiplies the love with everyone elses. It may start like this in the mind. ” Oh that would be lovely to get that for my boyfriend, ( visualizing a smile and a kiss) or ” someone will be very lucky to recieve this” or ” He really cares and shares his love by giving” To be the recipient of the Valentines love, sets out to the universe love and in that moment of thought your love is shared with everyone
so sending love to everyone reading this.. Cheers Cindy
Well right now i can say when I turn off my mind things just sit and stir, not moving and then it seems like the world crumbles. The good news is that I have built an automatic foundation that even if i tried not to do it ,,,, it just happens so i got to bounce back from what ever was happening alot quicker and with a happy heart.
Today i went to pay a parking ticket and I walked in to a very professional building area. Whom ever designed it i became immediately grateful , the colors the layout, the computer system, and the instant look over the shoulder. Please wait i will be just a minute words. The other person was in extreme self thought, and was a bit agitated, both seen i was there and as i watched i got prepared for the teller to pay my bill.
Can I help you mam? Well yes you can? I told a small story about no credit card and i was ill and now i have come to pay. Oh by the way Happy Valentines Day and i hear that is considered Love Month. we both giggled. i told him i liked the area he worked in and that i am happy to pay my bill . He was smiling and he reached under the counter and handed me a smiling cow. a stress tool. so cute. I laughed and wished him and his family many good blessing and when i went out side the sun was so warm and inviting at -18 against the brick wall of the building that I set my mind set for success this day.
cheers and love you all.
I wanted to add to my blog about the other week, this included stubborn, ego, my wants, attitude.
I heard someone say ” we dont have to do anything in our lives. pay taxes get married own a home, have a family, be happy , eat well and tada tada tada…..” well ever since i started to walk my talk with my DMP, i started to wrestle with the idea, “something is coming, showing up faster than usual” I am coming closer to myself, while i do my DMP. I want to say no to the uncomfortable but, This in itself is alot harder to say no to, because literally i am saying no to me.” So, I know the excersises in the course has helped me immensely. Now i am uneasy in my thoughts about my ego and how stubborn or what is my attitude, you know my constant thought, the old CD of “am i enough?” pops up and interupts the flow, with my business that is in my heart now. It is not my focal point yet i can see.
what is happening in my mind is after starting to move forward in my life, which is so different an area than i have gone before consistantly….. i realize that after,,, I have started to make an earnest effort in my art and putting an effort of my calling potential clients. ( I have sold my first art piece this week) My emotions came up, my successes had me in tears of joy , i cant believe, who would have thought, wow i did this, i am walking my talk. To: “am I enough?”, and wrestling with this is a struggle i see in front of me here. I got down on my knees and prayed for peace, focus, and to see what is real in me, my love , my heart set goals, and to see the vision of where i am going so clear that nothing will stop me. I am ENOUGH, i have support. That is self love right there, so when my mom’s words of manipulation and saddness come here and there, i realize i dont have to be like her to hang with her, I have shown her happy and I have shown her what a positive want is just by doing my business. Now she has a few danish friends, to go to church with. Something that she needs and has been complaining about for such a long time. Ithougth i needed to fill the bill for, well I am glad that i had a positive affect on her to effect that change of her getting friends. yes!!!! ( If i do something my son follows, my mom follows, my friends follow.. so you know what , i had better be putting into my life fun, alive, positive, beneficial actions in my life because people will follow no matter what I thought, do , say !!! Iam the sunshine in my life. }} I am seeing how I am in my world. My efforts in my dream matter to the people in my life and here i am , staying firm in my journey with support and love, wow, its like making it to the top of the mountain and veiwing the scenery with every new breath of fresh air.
I am taking me my best friend (me) on this journey. Its so brand new. I feel with every step i take and every book i read, i tell me myself, that “I am staying on this course, so no more getting the body posture, or the triggers that will lead to distraction of unfocus… I am staying on this course.” I have survived alot out side of myself. Its time that I stay in me and walk my talk. I feel like the poem , of the “The Footprints” to God. He carries me and I believe. I believe in myself.
SO for those who are uneasy again, its because you may have reach yet another cross road of change, of seeing the Gal/Guy in the glass, and I am here to say it is possible to find your inner you and take that marvelous part , stay in the present mind set and say “IAMENOUGH!!! ox my love goes out to all of you.