last week for me was a little much, i was over whelmed and my menopause was very prominent, glass fogging up, hot sweats, interrupted sleep, cranky after that, i make an effort to ignore and then sometimes i want to hide and not do anything and then the voice in my mind is whispering, “when you get past this, you will see the treasure on the the other side.” Cindy let go!” > Gives me strength from within.>>
I have found having to find a person to chat with is more than a little uncomfortable. .. number 1: i understand that i will see a little more of whom i am because the person i find and the one that finds me is there for a reason. 2. i also believed i needed guidance as to what this activity should look like, slowly my self problem solver got activated and self confidence and determination came up. answers were revealed one by one. I know myself enough that when i have a doubt i find a solution to solve this. ALSO I remembered Mark J s words one of the work shop videos he is working towards self directed-ness with us, 30,000 so that kinda knock my fear out of the water placing a challenge in its stead. 3. I have had a belief, a fear of doing things wrong. My thoughts go back to my child hood where circumstances and people around me affected my idea of myself. i carried these thoughts agreements/beliefs thru out my life realizing that i followed the agreement of being not worthy and not ever amounting to anything. Now i can see how this has affected my life now. Now in the master key workshop i can actually feel like i am an adult , focus more and i see me , see that my habits of hiding and ranting out my emotions are not applicable/ appropriate for my life and most important for my life long dreams and it is part of this wall, the cinder block, that keeps me from letting go of my old/ bad and constant negative habits. This could hold me in the same moment, year , day minute and this could be like the repeating ground hog movie. CINDY LET GO AND KNOCK THIS CINDERBLOCK OUT , YOU CAN DO IT , YOU CAN DO IT YOU CAN DO IT….. USING COLORS SHAPES EXERCISES, REPEATING VERBALLY HAVING A VOICE MUSIC WRITING DOING ACTION COMPACT WORKSHOP ACTIVITIES TO HELP US FOCUS AND THE SUPPORT AND A LOT MORE… HAS HELPED BRING MY REALITY TO THE PRESENT. TIME TO CELEBRATE FOR THIS UNDERSTANDING ,,, YOU GUYS AND GALS WOO HOO DO IT NOW”
Trial and error will happen, and a small trial happened, i dealt with this and found out i did well at the end of the week .
TAKING THIS WITH A GRAIN OF SALT.>>
I CAN CELEBRATE BEING MORE AWARE OF ME!!!!!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU
I AM NOT ALONE